i had everything and i lost it. . .

this will be my final journal entry,

ive lost the warmth of an angel
i will never again taste her lips
the consequences for my acions are
sleeping and waking cold and alone
suffer through the memories i have
and never have a smile on my face.
i dont blame her though, i had
forgotten what i did before i met
her, now my past has caught up with
me, im sure she thinks im a monster.
i am the definition of evil and now
ive lost the one person in this
world whom i care about, whoim i
would travel the world just to see
her, whom i would stop the sunrise
itself so that her beauty will always
stay in the grace of the moon, i cant
remember much of my actions that led
up to this moment, there seeping
through like venom spreading through
my veins.ive lost my angel and will
naver get her back, i have to wake up
every morning now and face the day
with her saying goodmorning, and i am
too much of a coward to take the easy
way out, or maybe the reason is that
when it is my time to die, hopely god
or someone takes pitty on me and give
her back to me. im so fucking sorry